Today hurts

I am having a very rough day. Work was fine. I don't feel very good, but will live. I am just an emotional wreck. I am not where I want to be right now (in my life) and I am having a difficult time dealing with it. I feel very alone and I have this overwhelming feeling of coldness that I just can't shake. I know that sounds weird. I feel cold on the inside and out. Maybe it is that I am shutting down. I wouldn't say numb... I just want to go for a drive, or go to sleep and have it be a month later. I don't know how I am going to make it through Christmas this year. I am trying to ignore it.