OMG

I think I broke my baby! Jake's bottom was a little red so I put some cream on it. I forgot to buy more of the cream I like yesterday so I put some we were given as a shower present. I think we have put it on him a time or two but it is a funky color and I don't like that so I don't use it. Besides, we have a cream that works well for us. Anyway, I put Jake in his chair to eat and I was cleaning the kitchen and getting my own plate. For once we were eating the same thing! Jake is just pushing the food around. I don't think he tried it at all. He threw his fork and spoon on the floor and was whining. I brought him applesauce (he loves that word!). He repeated applesauce a few times but wouldn't eat it. He asked for his milk so I got that for him and he drank some milk. Then he drank some of his juice. He was whining more. He wanted to be picked up. I picked him up and sat him on my knee and he wiggled away but immediately wanted to be picked up again. I picked him up and he had his fork from the floor in his hand. I tried to give him food off my plate which he refused. He told me he was hungry so I got him some baby food instead. He ate about half of what I gave him and cried. He kept saying owie and holding his arms out but wouldn't point to where it hurt when I asked. I wasn't exactly expecting him to but it would help.

So I took him and gave him a bath. His bottom was red and he wouldn't sit. He kept one leg under him and leaned forward. I gave him his allergy medicine and washed him up like usual but he wouldn't play. He just whined. He wouldn't take a nap today so I knew it was going to be a difficult evening. I took him to his room and put him on his changing table. OMG! I wish I could take a picture and post it without it being considered child.porn. It was horrible. I have never seen anything this bad. He apparently reacted to the cream I put on him. His everything was red or red and blistering. He has little cracks in his groins now and his pen.is and scrot.um look horrible. I feel just horrible. My poor baby. I thought about scooping him up and dashing to the emergency room but I doubt they will do much for him. I cut open the tube to our regular cream and scraped out the inside. That was the first tube we went through. We don't need it often but still I forgot and I feel so bad. He just cried and hiccuped. He just couldn't get comfortable. It took forever to get his jammies on him and then I gave him some tylenol and I no more than sat in the rocker to try to comfort him and he was out. I hope a miracle happens while he is sleeping. I feel so bad for him. I feel like a terrible mom