I'm less whiny today. I am tired, but I am going to make it. I went to work late today and I did have a stretch of about 45 minutes at work where I was scared to death, but other than that the day was good. We were told we had a trauma coming in and that it was a child. We generally send someone down to the ED to figure out what is going on and what role we will play. I went down there and before the child was even there I was being sent back upstairs to prepare for a craniotomy. Opening some one's head is scary all the time. These are very serious cases and things have to move very quickly because time is extremely important. Then when you make the patient a child it makes it at least a hundred times worse. I am not able to move as fast as I would like right now, especially in a crisis. When I do rush around I have contractions. This is why I thought i should stop taking call a while ago. I was very scared because this was one of the worst case scenarios that I have been fearing would occur. The good news was that the child wasn't hurt as severely as we were originally informed. Wonderful news for the child and for me as well!

I heard so absolutely horrible news at work today and I am very upset. I feel terrible because I didn't know there was anything going on at all. One of the nurses in the PACU has a baby that is about six months old. He was a HUGE baby at birth and she had to have a c-section. Well, he hasn't been doing very well I guess. I heard today that he is only 13 pounds right now!!! She keeps telling her doctor something has been wrong and I guess they didn't see there was a problem until now. He is going through a battery of tests but right now on the top of the list is leukemia!!! I am just devastated for her. She had two miscarriages before she got this little guy and now this. I just can't imagine. Cancer is horrible always, but it should never happen to a child let a lone a baby. I just can't believe this. I guess we will have to wait and see what happens, but right now none of the possibilities are good. Please God, help this little boy!